#simplythankful for all of the good, bad and ugly experiences that I have had in my lifetime because they have built me into the person that I am today and if I must say so I’m pretty DOPE. 😉 #simplythankful … What are you thankful today? (Use hashtag and tag me)
If being satisfied for you means settling for me then I will never be satisfied…
People have told me that I’m never satisfied and when they would say it I would question myself and really wonder if I was asking for too much. But what I realized one morning is that my satisfied and their satisfied doesn’t represent the same thing. You may be OK with just having ham on your sandwich but I want ham, cheese and mayo. We all want things done our way and granted that isn’t going to happen all of the time but it doesn’t stop you from wanting what you want. If I want my grass cut a certain way and I’m paying you for it then please cut it the way that I ask you to. Your satisfied could mean settling to me and my satisfied could mean too much for you and I’m not about settling because I’m destined for so much more and so are you if you look past what’s in front of you.
Moral of this short post…Never let someone make you feel bad for wanting the life that you want for yourself. Your vision is not their vision.
“Is it me?? A question I constantly ask myself … Insecure in my own thoughts. Insecure in all that I do and say and try to process… Always over processing and over analyzing and killing myself in my own head. Crazy thoughts that I go through. It’s always an evaluation in my head. Ongoing … How do I make it stop? Comfortable on the outside but so many questions on the inside. How am I able to be transparent in a safe place? Who am I really safe with? Right now I don’t even feel safe with myself. Always looking for another something another beginning another another and another. How do I get through this? Keeping everything in as to not burden anyone else but who’s always there to lend a listening ear to help or just be a comfort. Where is my comfort? Trusting and listening always smiling but for what is life like this … A roller coaster just ready to get to the end of this ride and walk away 100% confident. Walking into some situations with my eyes wide open knowing it’s not for me but at the same time because I know what’s going to happen gives me some kind of peace. Walking into other situations trusting and not knowing and then getting hurt because I didn’t know what was a head of me. Always ready for a risk but only those that I can kind of control. Headaches come and stay because I seek a box to keep myself to keep my surroundings controlled. Is it me??? Shrugs… Got to get out of my own head … Smh at myself.”
I posted this on my first blog in 2014…my my my I have come a long way. Today feeling a lot more confident in who I am and knowing exactly what I want in life. My purpose is clearer than ever although some times I do stop and ask God if He is sure (I still have my moments). Life is funny sometimes and I have really started to embrace everything that comes my way good and bad(even if I don’t like it). If I resist it only hinders my progress and I am tired of being stuck because I want to be rebellious to what I don’t like going on at the moment. Disclaimer: I am a super rebellious person. So anything that doesn’t fit into my vision I am not here for it. I am getting better though, one day at a time. Back to the post, I realized in reading my previous post that my purpose requires me to hold other people up more than they are going to hold me up. Everyone that you are meant to hold down isn’t meant to hold you down. Your confidence doesn’t depend on them or anyone else. Love yourself because it is best for you and it makes for a better life.
Your life should reflect confidence, boldness, and braveness no matter what your purpose is. Although it is a daily decision you have to make it and walk in it. Do know that distractions are going to come but that is when you fight harder for what you want.
I want my friends, family and clients to know that they can always count on me to hold them down no matter what they are going through and when that moment of realization hit I was completely OK with where I am going and the situations that I have been through. You have to get to a point where you realize that your life is so much bigger than you because it isn’t for you. You are here for the growth of others and when you accept that I think you will go through life a little less stressed, worried, and unhappy. I will probably mention this more often because we have to be reminded that when things hit us its just a growing spurt for us to help someone that is coming behind us. Let your resilience shine through. Embrace it all and grow.
I hope this helped someone…Comment and let me know what you are dealing with and let me hold you down while you grow through.
Until next time continue to live simply while making it extraordinary.
I don’t know how much more I can stress that patience is the key to getting where you want to go. Anything worth having and keeping isn’t going to happen over night. One thing I don’t pray for is patience because I know that it is already going to be tested so why ask for extra test (I am not about that life) but one thing that I am grateful is the amount of patience that I already have. It is definitely being tested these days but I understand why and I am just praying that I pass.
When you think that you have hit a brick wall that is when your faith should kick in in full strength, God is watching your every move and is ready to help you conquer whatever you are going after. So don’t give up when you don’t see another way know that God is preparing and working it out. Keep pushing and stay faithful in your walk.