Prayer Warrior: Who ME?

When did I become a praying person but wait when did I become a prayer warrior?  I woke up one day and was like when did I start praying for everything, all of the time.  I caught it one day when I was doing a live video on Facebook for an outreach event that me and my best friend started doing 2 years ago.  I was doing the video and I was thanking those that had already donated to the cause and I said “Thank you, In Jesus name, Amen”.  I got so tickled at myself.  I was like where did this girl come from. But I have become that prayer lady and I am actually like super excited about it.  Praying has become such a part of me.  I wake up praying, I pray for people that my flesh would really like to punch in the face, I pray for people that I don’t know, I just pray, literally for everything.  But then there was that one day that I didn’t want to pray and this next question slapped me in the face on that very same day.  Keep reading…

So one day I was asked if I get tired of praying for others and my stuff all of the time???  The question threw me but I’m glad that it was a text message and not a face to face question (if you know me you know that my face talks more than the words that come out of my mouth) because it felt like an in my face type of question.  I had a serious gut check when I read that question.  My completely honest, without any tact answer started to come because remember I said I didn’t want to pray that day but I took a second and asked God to please give me an answer and the answer given was “I just do what I am led to do”.  Seems cliché but it is totally the truth.  I pray as I am led to pray.  It was the realest answer for myself because that is literally how my prayer life happened.  I am really not sure what she wanted to hear but that is one of those questions where I wasn’t going to do any follow up or explanation.  I left it at that and I knew that there needed to be no follow up when no follow up questions came (look at God, He knew I wasn’t ready).

Disclaimer:  I AM COMPLETELY AND PERFECTLY HUMAN.

Truth be told I do get in my feelings when I see other people’s prayers being answered, things that they have asked me to pray for getting answered but it doesn’t stop me from praying for them or for me.  One of my friends told me that I have a direct line to God because they received confirmation.  Some days I don’t know about that direct line because I don’t feel like He is answering my prayers.  One of my favorite business women Myleik said something recently that made me stop and think…”Feelings aren’t Facts”.  Just because I don’t feel like He isn’t answering my prayers doesn’t mean that He isn’t answering them.  Some days I still push back and try not to pray but I always get reminded that me not praying is hurting me more than it is hurting God.   Prayer is a necessity like water you have to have it in your life in order to sustain yourself.  It builds relationship with God and that is the most important relationship that you could have in your life.

So when did I become this prayer warrior?  When I really understood that this life I’m living is bigger than me.  That what I go through isn’t for me but for the people that I am called to help.  That this life is to be an example to others.  When I fully understood that, I started to pray so much more purposefully because I knew that He had to be 100% in the mix.  I can’t do this thing by myself.  I don’t mind being a prayer warrior and believe you me I still have my days of push back and I don’t want to pray but I will eventually give in and get the prayer out.  His will is bigger than mine so I have to be obedient to His will and Word.

This post is probably one of the hardest pieces that I have written.  I couldn’t find a balance between being transparent without being too transparent.  I am in a weird place with prayer right now and I know that it is a stretching and patient season for me.  So my prayer is that you will see my heart in this post and understand that PRAYER is totally where its at and you definitely need to develop a prayer life if you haven’t already.  Don’t know where to start just start with the Lord’s prayer in Matthew 6 and moving from there just ask the Holy Spirit to guide your words and thoughts and you will be amazed at how it will start to flow out of you.

I hope this helps some one.  If you need prayer send me an email or call me.  If you want more of these types of posts let me know also.  Leave a comment lets talk…

Until next time, live simply while making it extraordinary.

XOXO,
Zony 🙂

Focus On

I had no idea of what to write about this week so I am literally sitting here writing this post on the very morning that it is due to hit your mailbox.  I haven’t had any creative spurts lately and when I sat down to write for this week nothing was flowing not to mention how exhausted I am from being so focused.  I have post on standby but nothing seemed right to post today.  After such a great response to my post last week “Change Happens” I was like I really need something to follow up that progress of change.  I can’t break this momentum.  So I was stuck needless to say. 

However, I woke up this morning like FOCUS. Now I’ve been going over my notes from church service on Sunday where the topic of the message was “Focus”.  It was such an amazing message and the topic flows right along with last weeks post.  So with change there has to be focus now don’t let this little 5 letter word fool you.  It requires a lot from you.

It takes discipline to focus.
It takes preparation to focus.
It takes obedience to focus.
It takes love to focus.
It takes determination to focus.
It takes forgiveness to focus.
It takes letting go to focus.
It takes faith to focus.

On May 6, 2017, I woke up and was like I want “this” more than I don’t want “this”.  By “this” I mean the life that I have been purposed to live, the life that I have dreamed about living, basically the life that I want for myself and the legacy that I want to leave for my family.  Now I don’t know what happened the the week before that got me to this point but I woke up determined.  My “WHY” in life is greater than me.  My Purpose and the life that I want has become the driving force for me.  I have a lot to prove to myself.  I used to be so mad at people for letting me down but truth be told I was really mad at myself for letting me down and that stopped on May 6th. 

So on that morning I got out of bed and just started.  I honestly had no real plan but I knew I had to take steps and meaningful steps to fuel my purpose, my passion, and my vision.  I realized that no matter what I had going on around me that my focus had to be greater than the distractions.  My focus has to look past my past.  My focus has to look past the present situation.  My focus has to be greater than my excuses and the why I shouldn’t do this or want this.  My focus has to be greater than the fear that has stopped me so many other times.  My focus has to be over 100% at this point in my journey because I want the life that I want too much to let it be anything else.

I was having a honest conversation with my mom last night and I was feeling so discouraged because what I see isn’t matching up to what I want or the vision that I have been given.  I was on the verge of losing my focus and giving up and settling for those things that are right in front of me that would be easy for me to just grab right now and make the best out of it.  But she reminded me that giving up is not an option and settling is not an option.  I’ve had a taste of the life that I want in so many areas and just because it isn’t like that now I know that with my focus, my drive, my determination, my mindset change and with God it is all coming back together better than ever.  The pastor said on Sunday that you can’t let your history keep you from your future.  You have to push past your history.  Yes my past seems to be very present in my life right now but it isn’t and I have to see past that.  My question to you today is … Where is your focus? 

I challenge you today (I am all about a good challenge these days) to evaluate your focus today and decide how bad do you want “IT”.  What are you willing to do to make those things happen in your life?  What are you focused on that could keep you from living and moving in your purpose and accomplishing your goals and dreams?  I see a super amazing future ahead of us all and we just have to be focused enough and believe that we can accomplish it all.

How can I help?  We all need a coach… my mom was my coach this week.  Comment below and let me know what you are focused on and if you need any help or encouragement I am here.

Let’s CHAT!!!!

Until next time, live simply while making it extraordinary.

Zony 🙂

Remain

Remain in God
Remain in Jesus
Remain in the Holy Spirit

Remain was a theme of a Bible study that I was doing and although I have been a little slack in getting it completed. It has been a subtle theme around me lately yet a strong reminder that when I start to lose faith and start to doubt myself and what I am purposed to do I have to remain focused, remain determined, remain productive and remain myself.  I have definitely lost myself a couple of times during my life time but I have become very wise in my growing up.  Again growing up sucks but in order to become better you have to grow up.  In order to walk in your purpose you have to grow up.  I am learning this whole responsibility concept on another level (lets be clear I have always been pretty responsible but I have never liked it).  I honestly just want to disappear into a dream most days because it is so much easier there.  But the Bible study has shown me a different way.  Too often we give up and giving up most times only sets us back and prolongs us from getting to our destination.  The road gets rough and tough.  The road gets exhausting.  The road gets dim but you have to remain in Jesus to maintain yourself.  So stay encouraged while walking in your purpose or whatever direction you are trying to move forward in.  Tough times come but they don’t last.  Remain true to you and what you believe in while going through.

Until next time live simply while making it extraordinary.

Zony 🙂

7 Ways I Got My Confidence Back

Ever had a day where you looked in the mirror and didn’t recognize the person looking back at you.  Well that day came for me and it was a really painful moment in my life.  I had become a shell of a person moving in routine and it was no ones fault but my own.  But that day I realized that I had become mediocre at best and I remember texting two of my best friends and telling them my realization and I was determined to turn it around.  I sat down with my goals and decided to accomplish them and as I became consistent in my life and doing more of what I wanted to do, mediocre started to fade away.  Life isn’t perfect but it is definitely great and worth living. Here are 7 steps to get you started if you are feeling mediocre in your life.

  1. Exercise on a regular basis, I set a goal to lose 60 lbs at the beginning of 2016.  I made sure that I completed some type of physical exercise everyday except for the weekends unless I had some time.  I started to feel off balance if I missed a day.  It was so refreshing for me.  I am proud to say at the end of 2016 I lost 50 lbs. and I am loving the way that my body is looking.  Your girl is sexy around here.
  2. I started focusing on building my business, Simply My Purpose.  I have always wanted to own my own business and I threw myself into learning it, building it and trying to figure it all out one day at a time.
  3. Prayer, Prayer, Prayer…I looked up one day and I had become this prayer warrior.  I started praying everyday literally all day.  Anytime I started doubting myself I prayed, whenever anxiety would start to creep up I prayed.  I didn’t really need too much of a reason to pray.  It just became the normal and still is.  I kind of love it, it saves me and keeps me right on track daily.
  4. I exercised my faith.  My faith in God because He always brings me through no matter what I have done and no matter how I put Him to the side. He is the real MVP in my life and where my confidence is now.  Also, my faith in myself, I’m super strong and I may have my moments of despair but I always come back better than ever.
  5. I am a super introvert but I made myself reach out to my friends, my mentors, and my family.  Being able to vent to them and get encouragement and just be around positive people has definitely brought my confidence level back up to 100. 
  6. I set a number of goals for 2016 and I accomplished 90% of them.  I was super amazed looking back over my vision board and checking those things off plus some things that I didn’t put on my board.  So just knowing that you can set goals and you actually accomplish them is a major confidence booster.
  7. I really have taken the time to get to know myself.  One of my major prayers is “God show me, me as you see me and help me to grow in all areas to be a better me daily.  But God really show me who I am and who I am becoming.”  I spend so much time with myself, writing and just getting to know me again outside of everyone around me. 

I am completely proud of myself and I am completely in love with myself.  Not in a conceited way at all I just know where I was and where I am now and it truly amazes me everyday.  Let me throw this disclaimer out there, none of these steps were easy at all.  But it took me deciding to not be that shell of a person that I saw in the mirror and become who I am now and who I continue to grow into daily.  She who is me is super amazing and if you are struggling with your confidence just know that YOU ARE TRULY AMAZING AS WELL. 

That is all for now and as always thanks for visiting and reading until next time live simply but make it extraordinary!!!

Write me back and let me know how you keep your confidence at 100 or if you need any help from me to get that level to 100. 

Zony 🙂