Growing Through

growing-through

“Is it me?? A question I constantly ask myself … Insecure in my own thoughts. Insecure in all that I do and say and try to process… Always over processing and over analyzing and killing myself in my own head. Crazy thoughts that I go through. It’s always an evaluation in my head. Ongoing … How do I make it stop? Comfortable on the outside but so many questions on the inside. How am I able to be transparent in a safe place? Who am I really safe with? Right now I don’t even feel safe with myself. Always looking for another something another beginning another another and another. How do I get through this? Keeping everything in as to not burden anyone else but who’s always there to lend a listening ear to help or just be a comfort. Where is my comfort? Trusting and listening always smiling but for what is life like this … A roller coaster just ready to get to the end of this ride and walk away 100% confident. Walking into some situations with my eyes wide open knowing it’s not for me but at the same time because I know what’s going to happen gives me some kind of peace. Walking into other situations trusting and not knowing and then getting hurt because I didn’t know what was a head of me. Always ready for a risk but only those that I can kind of control. Headaches come and stay because I seek a box to keep myself to keep my surroundings controlled. Is it me??? Shrugs… Got to get out of my own head … Smh at myself.”

I posted this on my first blog in 2014…my my my I have come a long way.  Today feeling a lot more confident in who I am and knowing exactly what I want in life.  My purpose is clearer than ever although some times I do stop and ask God if He is sure (I still have my moments).  Life is funny sometimes and I have really started to embrace everything that comes my way good and bad(even if I don’t like it).  If I resist it only hinders my progress and I am tired of being stuck because I want to be rebellious to what I don’t like going on at the moment.  Disclaimer:  I am a super rebellious person.  So anything that doesn’t fit into my vision I am not here for it.  I am getting better though, one day at a time.  Back to the post, I realized in reading my previous post that my purpose requires me to hold other people up more than they are going to hold me up.  Everyone that you are meant to hold down isn’t meant to hold you down.  Your confidence doesn’t depend on them or anyone else.  Love yourself because it is best for you and it makes for a better life.

Your life should reflect confidence, boldness, and braveness no matter what your purpose is.  Although it is a daily decision you have to make it and walk in it.  Do know that distractions are going to come but that is when you fight harder for what you want.

I want my friends, family and clients to know that they can always count on me to hold them down no matter what they are going through and when that moment of realization hit I was completely OK with where I am going and the situations that I have been through.  You have to get to a point where you realize that your life is so much bigger than you because it isn’t for you.  You are here for the growth of others and when you accept that I think you will go through life a little less stressed, worried, and unhappy.  I will probably mention this more often because we have to be reminded that when things hit us its just a growing spurt for us to help someone that is coming behind us.  Let your resilience shine through.  Embrace it all and grow.

I hope this helped someone…Comment and let me know what you are dealing with and let me hold you down while you grow through.

Until next time continue to live simply while making it extraordinary.

XO,

Zony

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Words of Purpose

Words of Purpose

When I read this I heard the tune “Do a little dance, Make a little love, Get down tonight…” But realizing that life is a delicate balance of making your life what you want it to be and represent.  You have to know when to move and when to be still and there is a time for both.  Walking that fine line of I need to do this but I need to let this just fall into place can get a little stressful and once you think you have mastered that rhythm a new tune starts to play.  Enjoy the dance and stay in step with the life that you want for yourself.

Words of Purpose

Words of Purpose

You know we often get caught up in the blame game and it is never our fault for where we are and what has happened around us.  But the truth is you are the only one responsible for you in real life.  You can’t wait for others to make you happy, get you where you want to be, and satisfy you.  You have to be willing to do that for yourself and until you are tired of being where you are you won’t make the necessary changes.  Truth is we as individuals hold ourselves back more than anyone or anything can.  So will you stop holding yourself back and GO GET YOUR HAPPY?!?!?!?!?!?!

Change Is Coming

Change

 One thing that we can definitely count on in life is CHANGE.

If you are a betting person you can bet your last dollar on the fact that change is going to come at some point in your life more than once, twice, three times.  It is always around the corner.  The worst thing that I think you can do is resist it because it only makes things harder for you because it’s going to happen whether your on board or not.  Change means growth in some part of your life.  You can’t be stuck in the same spot all of the time and in my opinion that would get a little boring.

Some ways that I handle change are listed below.

Prayer

Talking to God keeps me grounded during times of change.  I always pray for guidance and vision … “God help me to see what you are doing in my life right now, give me understanding”.  Its a simple prayer but powerful because He always shows me and I may not like what I see but its happening and I just need to go with it.  In the end it is always for my good.

Baby Steps

You don’t have to jump all the way into the change when it starts but you should be taking baby steps to get to the place you are being pushed to.  Don’t resist it!!!

Write

I have written in a journal since I was in elementary school.  I never knew how therapeutic it would be until I got older and realized that God was leading me here.  If you are writing while going through, you are getting your feelings out and if you go back and read some older entries in your journal you will see that you were being led to this point anyway.  There is always a prep we just ignore it sometimes.

Reach Out

I hate to admit it but I have been terrible at this.  I don’t like reaching out to people when I am going through things.  I always have this battle within myself going on when it comes to me calling someone and talking to them about the change I am going through. I have recently started doing it more but it literally takes me days to actually act on calling who I have been led to call.  If I hear it on Monday I am going to be like God I need another sign by Wednesday and I will do it.  It then becomes this anxiety in me that is definitely unnecessary.  However, no man is an island and you need support to help you through because change isn’t easy.  You aren’t meant to go through things alone.

Change is happening all around you and unless you live under a rock (even then the soil changes around you) you will be phased by it.  I haven’t always embraced it but I have settled on the fact that whether I like it or not it is coming.  If there is no change there is no growth and who doesn’t want to continue to grow.

Get excited about the growth that is taking place in your life.  I guarantee you will like where you end up.

Leave me a note letting me know how you handle change.

Talk to you again soon,

Zony

Words of Purpose

words of purpose

Ever want to go back and change somethings about your youth, no regrets but just some tweaks well guess what you can’t go back but you can start right now.  Start right now and be that person that you needed someone to be for you as you were growing up.  You need you but there is someone else out there that needs you as well.  Be that person don’t ever think that it is too late.

Words of Purpose

Words of Purpose

You will not succeed in life if you are not active in your life.  Success takes hard work, dedication, focus and so much more. Dig deep and grab all that you need to be successful and make life happen for you and when you make a mistake learn from it and keep going.  Don’t get stuck, don’t quit because you won’t gain anything by doing that.  Keep going…You got this!!!!!