When did I become a praying person but wait when did I become a prayer warrior? I woke up one day and was like when did I start praying for everything, all of the time. I caught it one day when I was doing a live video on Facebook for an outreach event that me and my best friend started doing 2 years ago. I was doing the video and I was thanking those that had already donated to the cause and I said “Thank you, In Jesus name, Amen”. I got so tickled at myself. I was like where did this girl come from. But I have become that prayer lady and I am actually like super excited about it. Praying has become such a part of me. I wake up praying, I pray for people that my flesh would really like to punch in the face, I pray for people that I don’t know, I just pray, literally for everything. But then there was that one day that I didn’t want to pray and this next question slapped me in the face on that very same day. Keep reading…
So one day I was asked if I get tired of praying for others and my stuff all of the time??? The question threw me but I’m glad that it was a text message and not a face to face question (if you know me you know that my face talks more than the words that come out of my mouth) because it felt like an in my face type of question. I had a serious gut check when I read that question. My completely honest, without any tact answer started to come because remember I said I didn’t want to pray that day but I took a second and asked God to please give me an answer and the answer given was “I just do what I am led to do”. Seems cliché but it is totally the truth. I pray as I am led to pray. It was the realest answer for myself because that is literally how my prayer life happened. I am really not sure what she wanted to hear but that is one of those questions where I wasn’t going to do any follow up or explanation. I left it at that and I knew that there needed to be no follow up when no follow up questions came (look at God, He knew I wasn’t ready).
Disclaimer: I AM COMPLETELY AND PERFECTLY HUMAN.
Truth be told I do get in my feelings when I see other people’s prayers being answered, things that they have asked me to pray for getting answered but it doesn’t stop me from praying for them or for me. One of my friends told me that I have a direct line to God because they received confirmation. Some days I don’t know about that direct line because I don’t feel like He is answering my prayers. One of my favorite business women Myleik said something recently that made me stop and think…”Feelings aren’t Facts”. Just because I don’t feel like He isn’t answering my prayers doesn’t mean that He isn’t answering them. Some days I still push back and try not to pray but I always get reminded that me not praying is hurting me more than it is hurting God. Prayer is a necessity like water you have to have it in your life in order to sustain yourself. It builds relationship with God and that is the most important relationship that you could have in your life.
So when did I become this prayer warrior? When I really understood that this life I’m living is bigger than me. That what I go through isn’t for me but for the people that I am called to help. That this life is to be an example to others. When I fully understood that, I started to pray so much more purposefully because I knew that He had to be 100% in the mix. I can’t do this thing by myself. I don’t mind being a prayer warrior and believe you me I still have my days of push back and I don’t want to pray but I will eventually give in and get the prayer out. His will is bigger than mine so I have to be obedient to His will and Word.
This post is probably one of the hardest pieces that I have written. I couldn’t find a balance between being transparent without being too transparent. I am in a weird place with prayer right now and I know that it is a stretching and patient season for me. So my prayer is that you will see my heart in this post and understand that PRAYER is totally where its at and you definitely need to develop a prayer life if you haven’t already. Don’t know where to start just start with the Lord’s prayer in Matthew 6 and moving from there just ask the Holy Spirit to guide your words and thoughts and you will be amazed at how it will start to flow out of you.
I hope this helps some one. If you need prayer send me an email or call me. If you want more of these types of posts let me know also. Leave a comment lets talk…
Until next time, live simply while making it extraordinary.